A few weeks ago, BBW reality star Evelyn Lozada’s fairy tale life took a turn for the worse. Her new husband, Chad Johnson, allegedly head-butted her during a very heated argument over a receipt for condoms she found in their car.

The two had only been married a little over 40 days when the incident occurred and without a second thought Evelyn got out of it immediately. Evelyn sat down for her first interview with ABC’s Amy Robach to talk about what happened that night.

Check out excerpts from the interview below:

On what she wants for Chad
I would like for him to tell me that he got help and that he is working on himself, whenever I talk to my sister or my girlfriend, I always say I want the best for him. I really do! And he is a good guy who made a bad choice. He loves football, he is very driven, a great dad. He made a bad choice that destroyed his life and I hate that I’m connected to that, I do, but it was his choice. It wasn’t mine.

It would have to take sometime [for us to speak again]. I love him very much and I think that us being away from each other is the right thing. So when is he going to say sorry? [...] It’s the hardest thing in the world to walk away from someone that you really love/ But you have to walk away because I have to protect myself.

On the events leading up to the head-butting incident
And then the next thing I know, he grabbed me by here [pointing to her head] and he head-butted me. I felt blood coming down my face… and I looked at him and I said, ‘You just head-butted me?’ And it just — everything just felt if it was in slow motion.

He was gone to me, like, it wasn’t him. He got out of the car, really, really quick and ran into the house, and I said to myself, ‘I need to get out of here.

On the decision to file for divorce
I said to myself, ‘I’m never going to go through that again, ever. I don’t think any woman should ever have to feel like that or be fearful of her husband.

I was a very good fiancé and wife to Chad. I did everything I could to make his life better. The person on ‘Basketball Wives’ is not the person at home. I don’t think he would marry me if I was.”

 Watch the clip below: