The first thing I did was check my Facebook page to see if I had any new messages or notifications. Yes, that is pretty sad because the first thing I really should’ve done was thank GOD for waking me up. I hope He forgives me for putting Facebook first, I am definitely going to have to change that because GOD is the head of my life!
I woke up this morning thinking about my weight loss journey and how I really want to get to my ideal weight of 175. As I scrolled through the pictures on my and my sister’s page, I started just really looking at myself and how much weight I’ve gained over the years. Seeing my face so fat, belly so big and just being out of shape really hit home seriously. They say pictures are worth a thousand words and I really found that to be true today. It’s amazing what pictures will do and that’s make you face reality. How I’ve been fat, overweight, obese or however you want to say it pretty much all my life. Looking through those pictures made me really face what I’ve been hiding from for years, and now I’m really ready to face this weight thing head on and beat it.
I really don’t even know why I woke up that early and why this was the first thing that was on my mind but apparently GOD is really sending me a message. Apparently, I’m really ready for that change. I’m really ready to see the new me, the me I’ve always wanted to and should have been. It’s amazing how you can let life’s challenges affect you in so many ways and apparently I’ve been using food for comfort. There is no reason I should be this overweight and I’m determined to do something about it! I don’t think I’ve ever been so determined in my life.
So today for the first time I’m going to reveal my current weight. I got on the scale again this morning to make sure I hadn’t gained or lost so it can be accurate. As of today Friday, September 23, 2011 at 6:00am, I weigh 322.8lbs and my goal is to be 175lbs which means I have 147.8 more lbs to go.
This is a HUGE step for me because I have never revealed my weight on here or any of the videos I’ve done! I feel like this is the only way for me to really face what I’ve done to myself and fix it, the only way I can truly move forward. I am going to get to my weight goal of 175lbs and do it within a year. I started my journey August 1, 2011 so this time next year I will be 175lbs mark my words. I refuse to go another year not wanting to be in the skin I’m in. I had a friend tell me her trainer asked her when did she give up on herself and that really got me to thinking about me and honestly I’m not even sure when but what I do know is that I’m going to and am fixing it.
On Friday, September 23, 2011, I declare this my day of independence. The day I let go of this fat girl and started getting back to ME! I have nothing to be ashamed of because being shame has got me where I am today!